Soul Vomit
While talking to God yesterday I started to soul vomit my pesky worries at His feet. I don’t operate well when something is bothering me. And I was bothered. But it felt like I was talking to a brick wall. Which made me worry even more.
The truth is, my relationship with God has been strained at best. I have not been the same Beth since my website launched, though I’m sure some sort of change was inevitable. Life was easier when no one else was reading my thoughts. I hate to admit this, but I have been consumed with myself. My goals, my writing, my uncertain future…
In the midst of my irksome worrying, two words materialized in my brain. Humble. Yourself. Knowing I had seen this word combination before, I flipped to the back of my Bible and hunted. As soon as I looked up the reference, I knew that God was meeting me right where I was at.
He called out my piling up sin-mess. In all areas, I humbly agreed with Him and asked for His forgiveness. And then, as the second verse struck me, I burst into tears. How genius is it that verse six is followed by verse seven? In one breath I’m told to make myself nothing and acquiesce to His superiority; the next I am reminded that the very same unrivaled Being cares about my soul vomit. I think He even holds my hair back as I retch.
This is one of my favorite verses <3
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One of my favorite verses, too, Kayla. Isn’t it amazing that God cares for each of us in that same magnificent way – holding back our hair when needed, holding a damp cloth to my forehead, patting someone else on the back when they are the most miserable, etc. God is unique to meet the need of each one of His children in the way that they uniquely need at that time.